Well, I had something for next week all planned out this morning, and in a matter of about four hours it got cancelled and will have to be rescheduled.
Again, I’m drawn to a favorite scene from C.S. Lewis’ book “Perelandra.” Like Adam and Eve, Maleldil (the Christ figure) has told the man and woman they must not live on the Fixed Land until He says it’s permissible. Instead, they must live on islands which float on the sea.
Like Eve, the woman was tempted to stay on the Fixed Land; unlike Eve, she chose to follow Maleldil’s wishes. Afterwards, the woman tells our main character, Dr. Ransom:
“The reason for not yet living on the Fixed Land is now so plain. How could I wish to live there except because it was Fixed? And why should I desire the Fixed except to make sure—to be able on one day to command where I should be the next and what should happen to me? It was to reject the wave—to draw my hands out of Maleldil’s, to say to Him, ‘Not thus, but thus’ to put in our own power what times should roll towards us . . . as if you gathered fruits together today for tomorrow’s eating instead of taking what came. That would have been cold love and feeble trust. And out of it how could we ever have climbed back into love and trust again?”
“…Cold love and feeble trust…” Ouch! I realize that if I really trust Jesus, I must let Him be in charge of ALL of the circumstances that roll my way. Perhaps my plan got cancelled because He knows that the time isn’t right at present. Maybe He’s protecting me from something I don’t even know about, but He sees all too well what will happen if my plan carries through as I designed. The best choice I can make is to just leave it up to Him, the little things as well the big things.
So now I’ll choose just to float on the waves as they come to me.